Brain is full of snot, and yet I feel great! Just having a project to write on, and a few days of dairy/gluten-free eating has helped me level out – a lot. Mostly it’s the writing though. Once the floodgate is opened it just keeps seeming to flow.
I read a little to Indigo last night, and realized that she’s never seen the process unfold before. Generally, I don’t show anything to anyone until it’s been reworked and rewritten at least three times – and even then I explain quite heavily that’s it’s still a working draft.
When I was younger and read or showed work still in the really raw process, I used to get really wounded that they couldn’t see the vision as it was unfolding. Or I assumed I just wasn’t strong enough to write it out effectively so I would give up – believing I’d never be able to express what I knew in my head.
Now, it only briefly fazes me. As soon as I remember that like all works – it takes layers, drafts and tuning. With painting there is primer and outlining and mixing and shading and hues. With sculpting you start out with only the rough form and the basic shapes and over time with much careful planning there is shaping and molding and grinding.
Now that I know this, and I’ve seen my own process – I remember why I wait so long to show anyone even a rough draft. Still, I am so excited to be setting up a special space now that I’ve gotten my schedule fixed at work, I can encourage consistency – which is really important to having a sense of security in mind before sitting down to lose myself in that headspace.
Also, now that I’m older I understand the importance of editors. Eyes that catch things you miss. Minds that can see the inner workings of story structure and help tighten things that someone who is not a storyteller by nature or craft would overlook. God bless the editors!
My plan is to have my first fantasy fiction/ erotic manuscript off to an agent by June 2008. That’s the goal. I want Liam and Harmony polished and set cover to cover by this summer. I also plan, for my own amusement to finish reworking and rewriting the Supernatural episode by the end of the month. Mostly for kicks and giggles – but I might also try to send it out. Who knows.
The point is – I feel like I’m home. Keyboard, coffee and a slew of characters that want to be set loose on the world. Wooo-hoooo!!
