Hallmark Day

Happy Day After Hallmark Day!

Yesterday started out horrible and ended like a Hallmark Movie.  I woke up angry. Couldn’t explain it at all. Then as I screamed at drivers on the way to work and stomped in and sat at my desk like a petulant 12 year old girl I realized I was having the worst angry mood swing I’ve had in years.

So I put on some music and decided to chill, when Cynth brought me a hazelnut Americano and my day suddenly started getting a lot better.  As the day went on we joked and laughed at work and at lunch I went and bought myself a vase of pink roses, a bunch of chocolate and a case of strawberries.  I told everyone I didn’t need someone to tell me I was worth a dozen roses. Somehow that action brought me to a sense of being centered and well taken care of and loved – because I knew exactly what I wanted and needed and I didn’t wait on anyone else to do it for me – I just took care of my own need, however silly or stupid or commercial, it just needed to be acknowledged.

Then I was set to go play pool with a group of “happily/bitter singles” so I ran home to grab some things before heading to Backstage and I walked into my room and stopped in my tracks.

There on my nightstand was a giant beautiful potted yellow Orchid, a box of chocolates and a card… I sat on the bed and opened the card:

“Beautiful Athena, on this day – of all days- I write to remind you of me. You don’t know me yet, but I am here. I have been looking for you as long and as diligently as you have looked for me. Don’t get discouraged, at the most perfect moment we shall meet! We shall know, together, the love we both long for. Hold open your precious heart and BELIEVE – we shall have our BLISS. Until then – Happy Valentines Day. Love, Your Future.”

And being that it hit me just right – I burst into tears. Indigo walked into my room and saw me crying, “Oh no! That’s not what I meant to happen!” She hugged me tight and we laughed. My Awesomest Roommate staged a Valentine from my future, my sometime love. How fucking cool is that?

It totally felt like a Hallmark Moment and I smiled about it all night. Thinking fondly every five minutes or so at how amazing my roommate is, how lucky I am to have the friends I have and how cheesy Valentines Day is and how – I love it anyway.

I got home after playing pool, which I’ll write about later, curled up in bed and read my card over and over again.  He’s out there looking for me, just as much as I’m looking for him. All will be well.