Archive for May 7th, 2008
I can’t stop thinking about you.

It’s ridiculous, really, because I don’t believe I’ve ever met you in this lifetime.
For sure, I’ve seen you in my dreams. For certain, I’ve curled against your body in the coldest part of night.

But not – and I don’t understand this – but not in my lifetime.

I see you now in my mind as you were then; older but perhaps not so much wiser as more experienced. You liked how I smiled at everything you’d forgotten to smile about. You used to touch my cheek like you would coax a bird to fly, a gentle nudge toward freedom – yet a desperate longing to hold on and cup something you believed more wild than yourself.  You looked at me with wonder as though you couldn’t understand why I stayed.

I see you as you were then, a sword and shield to my flowery speech and easy laughter.
Then just as clearly I see you now, and you are clawing to get as much into this lifetime as you can, searching for truth as though it tries to elude you intentionally, only really, waits calmly to be noticed from the corner of your eye.

I am bemused and vexed. On one hand loving this puzzle – because I adore being puzzled – and on the other being frustrated that I will never know the answer.

Who are you?
And why can’t I pull my mind away from wondering why – you suddenly feel so close. Close enough to have passed me in the bookstore, or the market.  Close enough that I may have breathed in your scent then lost it as soon as I turned into a crowd.

You are so close. Why now? Why this lifetime?
Why do I miss you when I’m sure we’ve never met?

Happily, Supernatural is back on. I was worried there for a bit thinking the writer’s strike had ended the season and we wouldn’t see anything till next fall, but so far they have put out two new episodes.

‘GhostChasers’ was campy and sort of fun, but I had to watch it in two sittings because I couldn’t really get into it at first.  The handheld cameras made it sort of disorienting and I had difficulty really enjoying the characters. Ultimately, I can see the attempt and enjoy the step out of the usual Supernatural box, but it wasn’t really my thing.

‘Long Distance Call’ was an interesting look into the isolation Dean is facing in himself with the eminent arrival of his date with Hell. He’s shutting down inside and pushing Sam away in an effort, I think, to come to terms with the fact that he is, without a doubt, about to go to hell and he’ll have to do it alone.

With that major character shift that was the only redeeming factor of that episode – which sort of makes it more like a nightly continuing drama than a show based on stand alone episodes. The plot felt old, the creature seemed flat and lacked sincere motivation, I felt like I’ve seen it all before.  The last two episodes felt like fillers.

While I suspect the writers are shaking off some dust and put out a couple of easy to patch together stories… I am more than a little concerned that the passion is slipping.

I don’t know if I mentioned it, but a couple of months ago I applied to McG to write for Supernatural.  McG is one of the executive producers of the show and with some help from Pha and a few others we dug up his contact info and I sent a cover letter and a page of pitches.

I had three story concepts – one of them I was the idea I had about getting Dean out of his deal with the Devil. The characters are easy to write and the concepts are fun for me, after all – I’ve been writing for supernatural and folklore for quite some time. Anywhoo, obviously I didn’t hear back but the way I figured it – You can’t win if you don’t try but you will most certainly not win if you don’t at least attempt.

So with all that being said, I have much more interest in seeing what they cook up to keep the show vibrant.  How are they going to breathe life back into Dean? How are they going to keep him from his deal? What will Sammy do when the chips are down? What other creatures will they meet and how will those adventures help shape them into better/worse men? How will their choices make or break them and what supernatural forces can the creators come up with to push the boys to the edge – maybe they’ll go over –maybe they won’t, but I am deeply curious to see how it turns out. What I am most interested to see is how they will pull the show up from this slump and send it spinning off in a much more powerful and entertaining direction.