I thought I saw you from the corner of my dreams, sitting gently by as landscapes roved and summer birthed to autumn.
You were ever sheltered by the maple shade and each time I turned to look you were out of sight, hovering near the edge of shadow.
Then amber leaves fell and the tree grew bare, winter ebbing closer and shadows long…there you were as I turned to look, sitting calmly by the trunk as though you’d been there all along, calmly waiting. Waiting till I had eyes
The deadline is looming and I’m almost done with my re-write barring the last ten pages which I seem to be on serious percolation in my brain. I alternate between needed to be social and not having the energy to deal with everyday dramas and annoyances. My fuse gets shorter and shorter the closer I get to deadline and I find myself easily irritated with crazymakers, simple requests and mundane favors.
Last night I bolted from routine and went to Uptown Billiards to enjoy a cigar and poker night. I just needed out of my head, away from people with needs and to enjoy some time where I didn’t feel like anyone had a request of my energy. I smoked a Romeo and Juliet and had a couple glasses of a delicious Scotch. And today I feel much better.
They’ve pushed the deadline back 8 days which is good but I’m still shooting for the original deadline of the 31st in an effort to let it go so I can have my life back for a while.
I will try to buffer myself more around people but I may also end up being a recluse for the next week as I push for the final leg of getting this project out the door. Thank god I took the first week of August off of work – I’m totally going to need the time to realign with the world at large.
It’s day 67 of the challenge and my protein intake has dropped dramatically back toward the lower line, so I need to step up my game as the 90 day date looms.
How are you all doing on your challenges?
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